Saturday, April 14, 2012

So frustrated....

It's been a interesting past few days.....  I don't know what to call it--It's not a full-on "crash", but my body is definitely dealing with some symptoms that have decided to revisit me.  :-(

I'm having a lot of issues with "air hunger" lately.  It's like I just can't get in enough air when I breathe, so I have to constantly huff in these huge gasps of air just to catch up or I start to get dizzy and have to sit down to regroup.  I also tried to work on some grad school last night, and my mind was a jumbled mess, I couldn't process anything to save my life, and my hands were weak.  I finally had to give up because typing was just too frustrating.  My fingers were tripping all over themselves, and it just seemed like the brain/hand connection wasn't happening like it should.  I had to finally stop because it was starting to upset me and make me worried.

UGH....I just want to live like a normal 35 year old.  We have earned it.  19 months post removal, and I still have these stupid relapses.

I'm actually on day 11 of my third detox (I did my last one a year ago), so I'm hoping that it is because toxins are dumping out of my system.  However, I don't remember having problems hallway through the detox before.  I just don't remember.  Trying to keep my chin up, but I also wanted to let you all know that it's not over for me either.  It is a roller coaster from hell that's for sure.  Pretty sad that we can't even get excited about feeling good or symptom free because who knows how we will do tomorrow.

Sorry for the negative post....I know that I'm normally trying to play the "cheerleader" role, but I get knocked down, too, and I have to be honest about it.

My thoughts and prayers are with all of us.

1 comment:

  1. Thanks Kristi!! The last week has been Hell on me too. Expecially this morning. Luv ya girly and hope you start feeling better